Bear in mind that I am in no way a clinical psychologist, but I have spent a lot of time in various online spaces where certain kinds of paranoia and delusion are common. Also I don’t know you from Adam, so I could be (probably am) entirely off-base here.
But the way you write to me sounds like you might be struggling with some very serious mental illness issues, including paranoia and maybe even incipient psychosis. I’d strongly recommend you talk to a professional therapist/counselor/psychologist/psychiatrist as soon as possible. If absolutely nothing else, getting your thoughts in order will help you be more effective in whatever endeavors you choose to do, and it might save you a lot of problems later.